I politely declined
as soon as I can purchase their plane tickets.
but still felt that I have no time for myself.
Then I came to realize that making time for me
All my time evolved in taking care of the family,
my immigrant visa application was finally approved
I can still have a "me time"
Even if I try to finish all of it,
listening to music,
I have a family to take care after work.
reading a book,
No more daily routine of nagging
and of course working to earn a living.
I missed my family back home.
I missed my husband,
I was lonely.
But surprisingly it didn't make me happy.
I can change my attitude and approach towards house chores and errands.
I felt something in me was missing.
Well, I guess that is all part of motherhood.
And so it happened.
or watching a movie
Now I can do whatever I wanted
Life wouldn't be the same without the people you love near you.
I only meant being able to do my eyebrows in an unhurried way,
I realized that the chores were unending.
and keep the house clean and tidy.
doing the house chores
they can join me soon
I am looking forward that
and pushing the kids to get up and help out.
I took responsibility of my being a mother and wife
without being constantly interrupted by my toddler
and still feel very exhausted at the end of the day.
even if I have the kids around
I was alone in an apartment.
as years passed by
The chores seemed to be endless.
easing the loneliness within me.
Whenever I get to be invited
I practically had all the time for mysel while waiting for my job orientation!
Not to mention the tons of laundry,
and other house chores waiting for me.
telling them the truth that
that I didn't give much thought about that "me time"
my husband and kids will have to follow at a later date
new ones will always come up.
I spent nights crying myself to sleep
with the words, "It's my turn, mama."
I tried to prioritize my tasks
As of the moment,
Since the agency was going to pay for my airfare only,
I missed my kids,
I can read my favorite books
I craved for "me time. "
having an hour or so of quiet bliss,
My to-do list never seemed to have an end.
After 10 long years of waiting,
playing candy crush,
My kids, my family are already part of me.
and I had to travel to a new country all by myself.
I can prioritize and plan.
I have been so used to not having time for myself
until just recently.
Even my simple hobby of reading a book was already a thing of the past.
and tried my very best to maximize my time as much as possible.
I tried to share responsibilities with my husband and kids,
And when I say me time,
and do all that I wanted to do with my time.
by my colleagues to go out after work,
and endless chores and errands to take care.
doesn't mean being away from those I love.